Guess Who I Am

Go to doctor feeling run down,
Doc calls back and sends me to hospital,
After a lot of testing,
He determines I'm about 2 weeks pregnant,
Great,
Have a dream,
Voice tells me I'm going to have a girl,
I will name her Jessica,
Call sister to tell her about dream,
She instead tells me about a dream WT had,
I'm going to have a girl and name her Jessica,
Weird,
Belly grows,
Dad calls her name by my belly,
She squirms and moves from one side to the other,
She likes music,
Can almost feel her dancing,
I can tell she will suck her thumb,
Loud popping sound from belly at times,
Can almost see her sucking her thumb,

Off and on labor for 3 days,
Monday morning dads dressing for work,
I really think I need to go,
Check in at 8 am,
She arrives at 1 pm,
Doctor stuck in elevator,
Can't get to delivery,
Nurse says don't push,
Doctor will be here,
She wouldn't wait,
Nurse had to catch her,
Doctor comes in in suit,
What a mess he becomes,
Grabs her out of nurses hand,
She begins to wail, and scream,
Mad at the world,
Nurse hands her to me screaming,
I say Jessica its me,
You're ok,
I'm right here,
She stops crying and trys to look at me,
She snuggles up,
Then they take her back,
I go down at night to feed her,
In hospital longer this time,
Got spayed,

People staring in nursery,
One man says look that ones already got clevage,
Sir that's my daughter,
She's strong,
Can pick her head up and turn it over,
Take her home and her Aunt Sandra won't put her down,
Mama-O either,
Only wants to sleep,
Had her natural no drugs,
Seldom cries,
Doesn't eat much,
Hard to get her to stay awake to eat,
Mothers day take picture with her and Mama-O,
Mama-O keeps her the first year part time,
Then she is at Kindercare till 2 years old,
Takes first step at 18 months,
Have to work on her tippy-toeing,
She walks around on her toes,
Not on her feet,
Dr says work on her achilles by stretching exercises,
At 2 pulled strings and got her in Memorial,
I worked 2 blocks away,
Her brothers also at Memorial,

At age 5 she goes to kindergarden 2 months on island,
Then we moved to Washington Court House, Ohio,
Goes there until January,
Move to Soddy Daisy and finishes kindergarden,
In August move to San Antonio,
Lived there through first and second grade,
First grade teacher wonderful woman,
Second grade teacher hated the world,
Told her if I had to I would spend everyday in her class,
To find out why Jessica was so afraid of her,
Jessica not afraid of anybody,
I went to principal,
Spent days between her class and library helper,
Directly across from her room,
I was the teachers shadow for the year,
Things worked out,

Moved to Jacksonville, Arkansas,
Open school set up,
Jessica likes her teacher,
She is good and kind,
Jessica wants me to volunteer,
So I do,
I worked in library in center of school,
I taught art to 3rd and 4th graders,
I knew principal and district supervisor,
Grew up around them with my teacher mom,
No money in district for art teacher,
Worked in nurses office too,
District couldn't afford nurse,

Moved to Wichita summer before her fourth grade,
Fourth and Fifth grade lived on Memory Lane,
Did volunteer work again,
Worked with all her teachers, librarian and tutored kids,
Jessica joins band,
She plays the clarinet,
Pass the ear plugs at first,
Later it was wonderful to listen to,
Moved to Maize District,
Sixth grade I worked with handicapped kids,
At her school,
All the handicapped kids loved Jessica,
Seventh and Eighth grade was middle school,
Didn't volunteer,
Felt it was time for baby girl to fly on her own,
Ninth grade Jessica attends Maize High,
Summer before,
She has band camp at school,
Vice Principal sees me helping sick kids,
Offers the job of working in nurse's office,
I wanted to be there,
Right after Columbine,

We moved to Springfield, Il,
She's upset leaving her friends behind,
She still keeps in touch with them today,
Tenth grade I worked in Library,
Just to be sure school is safe,
As far as safe goes in any high school,
Helped get ready for the library move,
Between 10th and 11th grade they move the school,
Brand new building,
Jessica develops many friends,
Joins many activities,
Excells in everything she does,
Seems to be happy,
As happy as any teenager can be,
Mom knows one day she will leave for college,
Sad but knows she has to grow and find her own way in life,

She's still excelling,
Working hard,
Playing hard,
And still finding her way.